Entry for July 02, 2006 ~Ctenocephalides felis (Flea)

Dang, I think I'm done at my mom's house. I went over there today since I had to flea bomb my house and flea bathe my cat. That was a laugh riot a minute let me tell you. I think I'm going to have nightmares over the looks he was giving me while he was in the tub. I know I put 1 cat with 4 legs in the tub, but he cloned while in there, I was wrestling 5 soapy cats with 20 legs I'm sure! After I put him in his cat carrier and put him on the porch, I set off the spray cans and scooted out the door. I got to moms and walked her  pond with algaecide, measuring out precise amounts and making certian the entire pond had the right amount to kill off the algae. That's what my daddy told me to do, in reality I just flung handfuls of crystals out and into the pond till the container was empty. I did get all the way around the pond, so I reckon it will start to kill it off.  Then I hung curtians, fixed her rods, screwed, drilled and used man tools to do it, played Huck Finn to my daddy's Tom Sawyer as we painted a white picket fence together, stripped and made all her beds and went out to dinner with them. After dinner I ran up to the local Wally World and bought them out of flea eradication devices for the cat. I bought spray for the nooks and crannies the bombs wouldn't mist, and collared and dropped Eugene with mega flea killer gunk, certian to annihilate all the fleas upon contact. Did you know that they make devices you plug in the wall that make a noise only fleas can hear, that somehow kills them. I though about it, but at $39.00 I said nothanksyouvery much. So I think that I will be flea free after the next round of bombs, as I am well supplied with the impliments of war, which will be in 7 days. I WILL WIN THIS CAMPAIGN!!! I WILL PURGE MY DOMICILE OF THIS ENEMY!  Hehehe such a nuisance. Then of course I had to vacuum and clear out the bag and all the clean up duty in the house, but I am done, I need to wipe off counters but that can wait until morning.

I got a call tonight at about 5:30 to go out dancing...lol after the week I had, that's just what I needed to do. I laughed and politely said nothankyouverymuch. I haven't been dancing in years, other than with one little guy, in the livingroom of my own home, with shades drawn and lights low. I asked what made me pop in his mind when he thought dancing was a good idea? He told me it sounded like a great way to end a hard week. I said a hot tub with a margarita and a swedish massage by a blonde buck named Sven would be a better way end to a long hard week. So as you see I gave up the chance to dance, so that I could quelsh the vermin in my home. What a life!!!

I had a great day, I'm beat, I'm happy, but plumb tuckered out...

love me later~ tj

Entry for July 01, 2006

July 1 already. Lots of folks are celebrating today. I did this day last year too. This year however, I am flea bombing my house, and dipping my poor ole cat. He is miserable. My kid had a dog that was flea ridden, now that the dog is gone the cat takes the brunt of the issue. i have noticed 3 flea bites last week on the little guy, and that's so not okay. So this weekend I spend scouring the house and eradicating the fleas that have taken up residence here. I am not looking forward to it, but it has to be done. Funny how it feels so good to do for others, but doing for me sorta sucks.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMERICA!

 MAY YOUR FIREWORKS BURST AND YOUR

BUBBLES NOT!

I'm putting off starting my day with just one more cup o' joe. Join me?

love me later~ tj

Entry for June 30, 2006

Today was another good day. I am tired, I had to take pain killers, but I worked hard and felt good about it. I put in my 8 for my boss, then went to moms and dug a 100 foot trench, raked a 50 foot hill, power washed her front slab of a porch (THAT took me 1-1/2 hours alone!). I took her garden tools up to the barn, took all the trash around (5 wheelbarrows up and down the hill) to the burn pile down the hill and then about fell down. I sat down, had a cup of coffee, chatted with my friend for awhile, took a shower, got dinner at 11:00, and waited for mom and dad to come home. They were tickled pink when they got in, and that was the effect I hoped for. I wasn't disappointed in their faces.

I put one of my favorite photos on this page. If you look very closely you will see a white snowy egret peeking through the trees. I love the memories surrounding this picture. That was a very good day too. I adore these snow white birds, more I think for the memories of discovering them than the actual, albeit beautiful birds. I have an idea for a sign shop I will one own and operate. I’m tossed up on the name of it, it will be either Snowy Egret Signage or Thistle Dew Signs. Both of these names come from photographs I took last year. This one that you see, and one I took of a thistle flower at an awesome lake in a state park that has fishing ‘piers’ of land jutting into it. I dreamt of this lake before and woke with the name in my head. Anyway that's for another day....

I’m tired tonight and that a good thing......

love me later~ tj

Entry for June 29, 2006

I'm tired tonight. It's Thursday night at 11:30 and I'm just getting in. I went to work for 9 this morning. I worked till 5:30 and stopped along the way to chit chat with a friend. I got to my mom's tonight around 6:15 to finish up the doors, I needed to paint the white trim on all 4 doors, and low and behold, there sat an old milk can and a wooden bench with a fold out table that both needed painting. I just laughed out loud and got to them. I was a forest green high gloss mess when I was done at 10:20 tonight. I showered and scraped my self off and sat and had coffee with my mom. I have been enjoying the heck outta my days, more and more as they go by. I'm tired tonight, but it's a good thing.

I'm sitting here having a cup of hot cocoa (raspberry of course!) and thinking about flea bombing my house on Saturday. My poor Euey is getting attacked now that the dog is gone. There are fleas in the carpet too, the baby has a flea bite on his arm, and I'm not happy about that! So I need to kick them all out Saturday and Saturday night, move the cat carrier onto the porch with Eugene in it, and bomb this place, and then go find me a place to hang out on Saturday. Three is a little park in Hillsdale that has some ducks and geese that I really like. I might just pack a lunch and head out to the monkeybars and hang out with a book for the afternoon. The bombs say I need to close up the house for 12 hours, come home and open doors and windows and then wait 2 more hours before I can come in. Now how in the world can I open the doors and windows without going into the place? Hmmmm.

The fireworks are Tuesday night. I missed the big show last year, didn't see any but the ones that were in the sky I saw as I was coming home that night. I had a great time last year missing the firesworks.... I might take the evening to go to the fairgrounds to look at them this year though. There is a little carnival there as well, it might prove to be fun. It would be more fun if I scrounge up someone to ooooh and aaaaaah with. I'll have to think about that, my main squeeze is much to jumpy around loud noises. It might scare the heck outta him, and I wouldn't want to turn him against fireworks. They are so beautiful.

I'm tired tonight, and that's a good thing.

love me later~ tj

 

Entry for June 27, 2006 ~Oh, Happy Day~

Today, I had a good day. I smiled a lot today. My bosses friend's daughter noticed. She notices a lot, I think she's a great kid. I put money in the bank to pay bills with, I worked, I had fun at work. My boss is generally a kind and gentle man, we have had our ups but besides our working relationship, we are friends. I suppose it's to be expected. I try my hardest to help him make money, sometimes I succeed, sometimes no matter what I do, money doesn't come in. The times, the season, the economy, it's all slow right now. Today I worked hard for him. I like listening to his ideas. He has some great ones. I learn a lot from observing him.  His friend is such a sweetheart, and accepts me as a fixture at the shop  (which is also his home). 

I woke up this morning with a phone call.  My friend  calls me often throughout the  day, just to connect with me. It's a good thing. I like that. He makes me smile, and I reckon it's noticable to some.

After work I went to my mom's and painted 4 doors. I have to go there again tomorrow for a second coat, and again on Thursday for the trim. I have been spending a lot of time with my folks, reconneting with them again. Mom made my favorite meal and as I sat there eating with them, I realized how lucky I am to have them.

I think that the weather helps my disposition. I hate winter. It's taken a long time to shake the winter blues away. A long time and some help from others. I had way too much on my plate, and I scraped most of it off, and left 'me time'  to connect and be gracious to others. I am happy, I am smiling, and I am digging my days.

love me later~tj

Entry for June 26, 2006 ~Changes~

Turn and face the strange, changes....

They are coming at me. So many changes all at once. But, I feel good, no I feel great, about them. I find myself in unfamiliar territory feeling so good about change. I have never embraced it. Once my furniture is placed, it never gets rearranged by me. Change scares me. It makes me feel out of control of the situation, which in turn makes me feel that I am losing the inner control of me. I have made changes and am EMBRACING them. {I feel wistful at the change in one relationship, but am looking forward to the day that he can accept me as a friend, for I really like him, am truly miss his presence in my life}. Beyond that I have made other changes, big changes, that are shocking the hell outta me. I feel for the first time since I left my ex-husband that my life is in alignment. I have control (I taken back control). I have no desire to let things happen as they may. I know what I want and I will direct my actions to obtain those things. I thought I wanted quiet solitude, and three weeks ago, I did. What I needed was a reevaluation. So I did. And damn I have direction and that one thing I lacked lately, self-esteem to make it happen. I have discovered that I am worthy of being treated well. No one should take advantage, but I was at fault for allowing it to happen. My adult children are moving out of my house on July 10. Thier apartment is ready for them on that day and they are beginning to pack. With them they take my precious boog, but oddly I am not only accepting that my baby daughter is leaving me and taking her baby to live with her husband, I am embracing , and am excited by it and look so forward to July 11.

My daddy made it. He is alive and well and will celebrate his 50th wedding anniversary with my sweet mother, in just 2 short weeks. The family is gathering in mass to celebrate the day. I have family coming in from Delaware, Virginia, California, Florida, Ohio and more. There are people I grew up with that I haven’t seen in 25 years coming to celebrate. I’m excited and awed for and by these two people I am proud to call my parents. The one constant that they carry through the years is the love they have for one another. Love so abundant that it flows to all they know.

After the celebration, I am taking my house seriously. I have a list of the things I can do for it and will get them done one by one. I am learning to ride my Honda. I might actually get it out of the parking lot and take it out on the road before summer ends.

I am smiling.

love me later~tj

Entry for June 26, 2006

Content. And I smile. The days are getting easier. Days of laughter. Sorrow leaves me as I accept and embrace the changes happening for me, around me and within me.

 

love me later~tj