Entry for October 23, 2006

Sick.

            Germs.

I'm so sick of germs and we are not out of October yet. Teaching youngsters it a rare treat that not many get the opportunity to have in their lifetime. Other folks' youngsters. I have done it for 20+ years now. There are but 2 drawbacks of teaching the most precious of our world's comodoties.  1.) Management 2.) Germs

I took a cold about 2 weeks into the school year. It hung for 3 weeks and then I was sick. Fever, chills, the works. I went to the doctors and got some antibiodics. My cold had progressed into a sinus infection and an ear infection. I took the antibiodics ... I felt better, but my ear still hurt. I carried on...

I wound up back at the doctors. Now it just didn't hurt. It smelled bad, I was getting dizzy, and IT HURT. More antibiodics, I finished them yesterday. It hurt so bad today that I called the doctor....again! I have not suffered an ear infection since I was 14 years old. Now at 45 I have one that refuses to go away. He gave me nasal spray and told me if it's not better by Wednesday I need to see the specialist.  I'll need tubes in my ears. This is crazy.

So I stayed home from both jobs today, doing what the doctor told me to do. resting. This is historical in itself. I never off both jobs. I usuallt call of my teaching job, it takes so much energy to work that job, and go to my other one where I mostly sit at the computer. Today, I called off BOTH jobs. I feel guilty, but I gave myself a pat on the back too. After calling into work I slept till 1:30 in the afternoon. I got up and went to the doc's for the prescription. I got it filled, came home, slipped back into my footie pajamas and had some soup for supper. I read some and now I am taking care of my 'puter stuff I want to get done.

The craziest thing is that I'm still tired. I will go to bed early tonight. After the Antiques Roadshow goes off. I love that show. I dream of the day one of my pieces of tresure is determined to be a fortune that I can say "SOLD!" to. I haven't seen anything I own on that show yet, but I still persist in watching it... one day my junk will be on it, I'm sure of that.

I feel tired, and hate germs....

but yet I smile....

love me later ~ tj

Entry for October 15, 2006

Autumn is exploding around me. The colors so vibrant. I look forward to my weekends. I work 13 hours a day, 5 days a week. I brought paperwork home to do this weekend. I got half of it done. Still need to clean and today for the first time in a month I'm turning on the oven. I am feeling rather domestic on this brisk fall morning. I slept in. What a feeling. I felt naughty, but I did it anyway. By the time I got up I had 4 messages on my phone. I had turned it off last night so it wouldn't wake me. I called my son, then my daughter.  Scott is coming home next weekend, and my mom is going to see Becky and my sweet Boog on Thursday so all is well and good. I miss his cherub's smile, his sweet coo's and joyious belly giggles. He's 7 1/2 months old now, and getting bigger and doing more, and I'm missing it. Becky fills me in on his development and bless his heart he loves the phone so I hear him "talking" to his Yaya often.

My friend and I had a discussion the other day. Actually he discussed and I listened. He said he's not crazy over the lable 'friend'. So I asked him what I should call him when I refer to him. I asked, 'Boyfriend? You are not a boy, you are a man.' 'Manfriend?' That's silly. He said just call me what I am, your fiance'. So that's what I will refer to him as.  (side note... the lable husband is in the far, far future in my mind...I'll know when I'm ready for that, and it's not anytime in the  near future.) So my fiance' is at his house with some buddies filling up a trailer full of his belongings to bring back here. I'm supposed to be moving furniture and deciding where everything is going to go. I figger I'll wait till he gets here with it and as we offload it we'll just put it. It can be moved around later, and again if we don't like where it is. 

We took last Saturday off and drove off into the most wonderful autumn day I have expierenced in a long time. We went to the apple orchard and ate warm fresh donuts, drank cider, bought apples and applebutter, listened to some musicians play and smelled the most delicious smells mingling in the air. Bar-b-que, donuts, apples, pumpkin pies, MMMM-mmmm. Then we drove off and went antique-ing. I love to look at the old things folks call antiques. Things like the toys I played with as a child. Now isn't that a fine how-do-you-do?  Sorta the same feeling I get when I hear Bob Seger on the 'Oldies' radio station. Jeez. I laugh. The music I listened to and the toys I played with are 'antiques' but I'M NOT!!

Well I have got to get to my paperwork I mentioned....my classroom lessonplans are in dire need of my attention, as is my house, and my cooking, and this furniture moving....hmmmm Maybe I'll blow it all off and sit and write on my story, the one I've been working on for a year, the one that was supposed to be a 'short story', I have to vist it and see what's been happening while I was away. Catch up on old times with my characters (who have become real friends to me).  Naw, I think I'll get busy instead...be responsible and trusthworthy.... UGH!

but I am smiling....

love me later~ tj