Zoloft Cocktail Anyone?
Had a really difficult year or so. I have a bad back that kept me out of work for 7 months 2007-2008 school year. Doc finally gave up on me and sent me to a pain clinic. He was able to keep the pain at bay, but it lurked in my peripheral view, always threatening. This past school year, my back went out again. I found a new pain doctor who after many months has finally cured my pain. I don’t see it lurking around anymore unless I have a very strenuous day. I only missed 3 days of work because of my back. No drugs. He did inject major steroids into my back every 5 weeks though. You know what steroids do to middle aged women? Plumps ‘em up like Violet Beauregarde
from Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory. Did me anyway. Well last month he went in and burned my nerves off in 4 spots in my back. It’s a treatment program that I can live with - pain free. Depending on how long it takes for my nerves to grow back is how often I’ll need the Rhizotomy.
Make Mine a Double Please!
On top of the pain, I decide that I want to stop smoking while I’m off work barely moving. I did quit. It was a year this past April. Steroids, quitting smoking - hmmm. One day I go to the doc with a stabbing tummy ache. Seems my stomach is disintegrating. Hmmm. There goes any hope for the lapband I wanted. I have to have major surgery. I had it on June 12. Right after I got back from Yellowstone with mom. I’ve been recovering from this the latest invasion in my life. He cut my from stem to stern, which got infected... the drains just came out a couple weeks ago. Sucked, but I am finally on the mend.
Straight Up with a Lexapro Chaser!
Christmas time Becca says, "Mommy, put your boob in your bra before we take pictures." Hmmmm, checked and both boobs were where they ought to be. So she says, "What’s that?" I say, "What’s what?" She points to my chest. I hadn’t noticed but there on my chest (right above the boobage) is a lump. Big hand sized swelling. Doctor sends me to a surgeon. Surgeon sends me for tests. Doesn’t think it’s cancer - all the tests turned out negative, but he wants to take the lump out. I want to wait awhile. If it aint cancer it can stay for awhile. I told Becca I could use the third boob as advertisement for a boyfriend. I go back to that surgeon in August.
Nevermind, Just pass the Chocolate!
Compound all this stuff with my daddy’s passing and I’m a raving lunatic. Nah, not yet. I do my best to look on the bright side - it’s all going away, and in the end I’m still able to ... live.
That’s a good thing.
WOW...you have been through hell and back a couple times here!! Sending prayers and calling my Dr for an extra script for you!!!
ReplyDeleteIt seems that with middle age comes pain, has me wondering what old age is going to bring.
ReplyDeleteRound is beautiful.....and I miss you.
ReplyDeleteI need to learn to embrace that statement. I really just want to lose some of the roundness, like the one in the middle that prevents me from touching the floor. Ugh, round is beautiful, round IS beautiful, ROUND IS BEAUTIFUL!
ReplyDeleteMe too my friend.
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